I decided to move to danville. it's whats best for me and it's whats best for my family. I can no longer continue to struggle as a single mother and take all the heat when things do not go right. so please, do not get mad that I'm moving 30 min away. and do not get mad that I'm taking ' your' kid away. our decision to have this kid has cost me more than u. when I decided to become a parent, I didn't decide to do it on my own. but I guess in a sense I did because I made that decision without a ring on my finger. honestly speaking, marriage doesn't guarantee a good father either these days.
my dream is to be a head honcho in a medical facility. that's what I wanna do, and I will. I can almost guarantee you it won't be at carle or provena. so what's going to happen when I make that big move out of this midwest world? I guess you're going to have to figure it out and make some accomodations. I refuse to be stuck in this deadness of a town just so you can spend time with your child every few days, or whenever is convenient for you. I think they deserve better, dont you?
I think they deserve to see success. I think they deserve to see a strong black woman make it to the top. I also think they deserve to see her go above and beyond to make sure they have the best and do not want for nothing. staying here just so that people can look at you and think you're the perfect parent because they see you with your child, hinders me and what I'm trying to become.
and when they see you with your child and they say, aww he/she's so cute, you're such a good father. taking them to the park, chuckie cheese, the museum. do u stop them and say, thank you, but I haven't seen them in about a month and I haven't paid child support in almost a year. or, I haven't been to any of their school functions nor can I even name one of their non-relative friends. lol. I doubt it. you'll simply say yes, then go about with a smile on your face as a proud parent.
and how dare you ask me, why everytime I get him/her they have on the same thing as last time? simple, when you only see them once every few weeks, that outfit comes back up in the lineup of clothes that you hardly contribute to. or, why their hair not done? simple, we wasn't expecting to see you today and today is my 'don't do hair today' day. we have that a couple times a week. and please do not get mad that I send dirty clothes. when i sent clean clothes you sent them back dirty. you have a washer and dryer just like I do. oh i didn't pull ups in there. that's because when i send them you don't never send any back to replenish my stock.
so once again, I decided to move to danville. where I will be relieved of some of my financial stress. that way, when I do decide to bring your kid back to visit (because I know you not about to drive to danville cuz you don't drive to rantoul now) I will be able to pack a bag full of cute, clean clothes and pullups for you two to have a wonderful weekend together. and will have extra clothes at home just in case you choose to keep some, which you usually do until they pile up then send them all at once, dirty.
sincerley, your bm
haha. i hate saying that. lol
